For the past 6 months or so I have been very unfocused and distracted when it comes to grad school. I really enjoy the program and feel that that it was designed with me in mind. However, lately the stresses of life seem to be coming more often. I give so much at work that when I get home my mind is like mush. I don't want to think or make another decision!
Sometimes I feel like I'm a hamster in a wheel. I'm running and running, but going no where. Sometimes I feel that my passion for helping young people isn't shared by key people who have the power to important decisions. It is my belief that public school as a whole can do more to help low socio-economic and minority students succeed. I witness first hand daily how cultural incompetence devalues students and decreases their intellectual confidence (that may not be a term, but any who).
This past school year has at times made me question if I am in the right profession. My soul cries for our young people. They are exposed to so many things at earlier ages that I may have never been exposed to. They are having to make adult decisions at home and then come to school and act like a child. That is proving to almost impossible to do. There is so much more I could say, but I will leave it here and expound at a later time.
I will fight the good fight. I will finish the race...STRONG!
I understand what you mean about focus. I have struggled the past few months balancing all responsibilities.
ReplyDeleteThe struggle is indeed real John! 😆
DeleteThe struggle is indeed real John! 😆
DeleteMasonya,
ReplyDeleteReading your post makes me reflect as well. Seeing talent wasted by so many when opportunities abound! Having once been young, I can understand some of this generations issues, because we have all faced challenges. I guess where I question this culture the most, is when there have been so many opportunities afforded and yet with these opportunities, so many take them for granted and squander them like chaff.
I too have questioned and this endeavor reminds me of when I would run 10 k survival races, we have hit the wall of pain, now just to knock it down and finish the event.
Thanks for responding Stanley!
DeleteThanks for responding Stanley!
DeleteMasonya your reference to the passage from II Timothy is one that has inspired me on more than one occasion. I am participating in a Bible study once a week at 6am with a group of men. As we share where we are in our faith walk, the pastor reminds us to take time and listen. As I continue in this program, I find myself listening more. Perhaps it is those few quiet minutes each morning as I stop and ask for His help to face the challenges of the day that is allowing me to work through the challenge that you so succinctly described. With Him all things are possible.
ReplyDeleteBlessings and God's Peace,
Jack
I have also began to understand the true power of listening. There are many insights gleaned from being still and listening!
DeleteI have also began to understand the true power of listening. There are many insights gleaned from being still and listening!
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